Is it too much to ask for, the quiet I deserve, I fear I'm becoming selfish, why is it much
more difficult to talk about how I feel,I mean how I really feel ? I question my own mind
as to what has brought on this way of thinking, why, when did I change ? What made me
change ? Was it pain, circumstance, tiredness, I think life itself has led me to become the
way I am now, nobody to blame, my fight has left me with pain and hurt on my face but
so much sadness, pity and sometimes anger, I shouldn't feel this way or should I ? If only
had had the same strength I had so long ago, but I'm zapped, tired, dislike myself for why
I've become the way I have. Nobody to blame and yet looking for a way out of this way of life, how different things could have been had I had more sense, In what way I wonder ? I am so mixed up. What can I do to unmix myself ? I hear what you're saying " Oh listen to her, pity me please " I hear you all, even though you don't utter the words, they are on the lips of those who used to respect me. Am I going mad ? Or am I just giving up on myself, like others have given up on me !!!!
